What I find most insidious with poverty, it is the guilt that we carry. I know, I live in poverty since many years. And for a long time I wore these marks and created situations that repeatedly showed me that "I was right" to feel guilty. That I was not being responsible, in the sense of taking responsibility for the situation and do something good with it, but guilty of getting myself into this mess.
I'm talking about the mess it is to be a single mother of three (beautiful) girls, and being self-employed, and an artist to top it off.
All these limiting and punitive beliefs stuck to me over and over again.
People who know me know how I am working hard to improve the four of us’ lives. I also understand now, and I'm proud of myself for that. Very recently, I have taken steps to get help to do my business plan, which will allow me to be more efficient with my business. In fact, I want to be accompanied in my approach, in order to clarify and improve my way of doing things, and get funding for the next steps.
I made several appointments, I met five counselors from various agencies who were all excited about my actions, the vitality and viability of my business. In making these efforts, 2 or 3 openings arised, and the possibility for me to get some personal financial assistance. I was happy with this because it would give me the peace of mind to continue to find new contracts, do what I already do, but also work on the drafting of my business plan, strategies to make my business successful, and so break the cycle of poverty. That way I can continue my project to help people take control over their lives through creativity.
But finally, I was not eligible. Because I do not get welfare or unemployment insurance, and that I am not a "precarious worker", according to their standards. Also because in 2012, my salary was of nearly $15,000. (My rent alone cost me $ 850 per month) Every time, the counselors were very uncomfortable in their refusal to help. I was told that I was falling through the cracks of the system. And again I felt that guilt.
And I am asking for your help. Because helping is easy, and it gives concrete results. Because helping others feels good, to the others and to ouselves. Because now I need you.
That's how you can help me. I hope that I have managed to give you a taste for it !
I decided to find 300 people willing to donate me 20$ each by the 31st of January 2013. This will create a fund of 6000$ and will allow me to work in the coming months without living with the constant anxiety of wondering if I will have enough to pay the next rent, if I can bring my daughter to the dentist, or if I can finally change my glasses.
It’s as simple as this:
1. By donating directly by clicking here (via Paypal), (donating 20$ or the amount that is convenient for you), or by contacting me by email so I can send you my address so you can send me a check.
2. By sharing my message to as many people as possible.
It's simple as that.
That's what generosity is for me today.
I will obviously keep you posted on the progress of my "fundraising campaign!" And I thank you very much!
Have a good day!
Where are we yet?
December 20th: 480$ It's working! I'm so grateful!